“A God’s Blessing” , as I called him..

This uncle "KUYA" of mine is one of the most special persons in our family’s lives.specially in mylife..

His my father's brother.He also supported our, me in schooling..
But sometimes I feel pity on him because he is often misunderstood by, Not to mention, despite of her sacrifices.I believe he deserve the best..

That’s why I always praying for his of not worrying too much of his problems.I really love him..He is like my mother and father in one..He is really "a God's blessing" for me..Wish he feel my love and care..I'll study hard to make him proud.Despite of my mistake's he's still their for me..Thank you..I love you..

You're the best!.. I wish for your happiness now and forever..

I know You Know...How I wish..

Their is a time I ask my friend why does she love you?
You're not really cute.But my friend said this "ask yourself why you love him?"..I admired you since high school..
"WHY do i like you?Why do i love you?.."It's so confusing..


It's really impossible for me to forget someone like you..
But,I know you had found your happiness to her..
How I wish I was her,How I wish I can pretend I'm okay and this isn't painful, But I couldn't..Because I'm hurting now even though I shouldn't be..How I wish I can say I'm happy for you..for the both of you.But,slightly I can't..

Does she really love you like the way I do?

Now I feel so horrible for wanting you..The truth is
I'm still hoping that you let me love you..That's all!..
I just want to ask you why you walking away?
I thought after the small time together will make you close to me.
How long will I wait for nothing?I know I'm nothing to you..for you...
This is my fault!I always hurting myself...Wanting someone that could never be mine..

The more I hide my feelings the more it's hurting me..
Do you think about me? Do you know what I feel?
Do you know how it feel?I know I've been blind..blind to love you..

I think you're blind too..For not seeing me.
You never look inside me and maybe I was wrong to love you.
I know you don't understand me and you never seemed to care.
I'll take this pain, of course !I have no rights at all.
But Why I can't let you go?I hope I'll get over you someday..

I know hiding is not the solution for this..
I want to face you to talk to you again even a short talk..
There are things that you should know..I want to be your friend indeed,
I want you to understand what I want to say,speak to me or talk to me,
Please don't go away ..You already know that I like you..
I had no secret at all,My only secret is..I was thinking about you,
I kept your picture on my cellphone,I cherish you so much.
In short I love you..

-I really admire you,but it seems you don't care at all..

what should I do now?

Do I deserve this pain?
You said I was worthless and fake.
Now I want to ask you,Do you really know who I am?
Why you hurting me..All the things you said is echo now inside my head..
You broke me into pieces.
I want to SLAP YOUR FACE AND KICK YOUR ASS!
OH SORRY I'm not that kind of girl..

All I want is a talk..A friendly talk to you..
But you made me disappointed..
You can say anything to me,Bad or a good things..
But I'm telling you this you have no rights..
I didn't expected to here those nasty words from you..
You're the first person who talk to me in that way
Do I deserve it??I don't know...
All I can say now it's really hurt..

You don't understand what I feel,You laugh like a devil..
Should I deserve this huh?..you call me shit,fake and worthless.Am I??
I just want to talk to you and say sorry for all i have done..
But you pushed me,Bit me with those words..It's really hurt!!
I don't know what to do to you..You don't know how it hurts,
It's like a doom for me..

I thought you're nice,but I was wrong...
Thanks for your time..you ruin my trust..oh you called me fake,right?
Why don't you look at yourself in the mirror or try to analyze all those things..
Can I ask you for a second?
Why you so angry?You are so dramatic,I know you're not true to me from the start..
It's all a game for you!..so now whose fake?..

Am I worthless to you?hmmm...Think first please..
Wish I could upbraid,scold,reproach all the things I've done..
I don't want to mention it anyway...