Why you do this to me?

I'm trying to understand what's really happening.I can't sleep without thinking of you,i hate it but it used to.Not all the time I can stand alone and waiting for you.Now i'm tired,"i'm like a stupid duck following a dog".But I can't say i've finally done,no i'm not,i'm still wanting you even my heart and mind can't understand
what's happening to us..

You know what?I want to talk to you but I think it's not time yet..
you have your own world and I have mine too.All I can do now is let you go and reset my mind to forget you..bye for now.

Just say it please..

It's ashame that I had to be this way..I think we better of this way..
I know i'm not the one you wanted,but we never talked for our concerns.You want to talk to me and explain what's in your mind.I think I know what's you want to tell me,I'm scared to hear it I don't want to cry.I don't know if i'm ready to face you and talk to you,please don't break my heart.I want to stop this stupid thing so just say goodbye..I will understand you.

I'm so sprung...

Don't know what I want..I don't know what he wants...
I hate this feeling..He's still on my mind..Why he came back??
He's hard to forget!..Do I absolutely in love with him?
I don't know if it's true.But now the attraction I feels to him is stronger..
I find myself extremely observed with him. I want to stop myself,Cause I don't want to hurt again..I'm tying to convince myself that he isn't what I wants..

Do I need him?
Does he care about me?Do you?

All I know now is he's not mine..Why I'm so loyal waiting for him,I shouldn't be..